Completely meaningless post for many, but I won. I posted on reddit a few times about the issues I was having with dilation. The pain, how it would take several minutes, sometimes over 30 minutes to get the dilator inside the vaginal canal, and also the unfortunate odor from the mix of lube and whatever that would come out of the canal during dilation.

I won because I didn't give up dilating. I wanted to, I wanted to stop so badly. It hurt, it was messing my mind up, I was dreading dialting every day. Plus, I am a professional when it comes to giving up on things. But I didn't, somehow. This time I didn't give up.

And things improved! Sure, there still is a bit of pain when getting past the tight entrance of the vaginal canal, but it is nothing like feeling like my skin is being ripped apart at various places like before. The god awful odor is gone, and I can get the dilator inside in two, three minutes tops, which still isn't ideal but I will take that over several minutes of boredom and pain. And a plus is that I didn't need to increase the number of daily dilations for things to improve. I would be hating my life if I had to dilate three, four times a day. Two is already too much, IMO.

Thanks for reading. I needed to share this.