I have to start with an apology for really letting my emotions out on an amazing staff who did a good job. But I hope it helps show people starting out that you will hit a low where you look and feel so bad you feel mostly regret. It gets better.

First of all, it grows on you. You get used to your body more and more, and it gets easier.

Secondly, I'm happy that somehow I'm getting ridiculous amounts of lubrication. I don't need lube to dilate at orange. Still no orgasm, but everything feels good.

Now, I still need a revision. Three months ago that felt like a death sentence. But guys haven't noticed anything off so there's that. But I'll detail what I don't like about my results that would make things better.

Always, it's been the lopsided, excess skin and fat in my labia. You can actually see in one pic how buried my fingers get trying to open up, and I'm a thin girl. Definitely want that reduced and cute looking.

Labia minora fell apart, but I don't know if I'll want any with the revision.

Lots of granulation around the clitoris still, need that to heal. Clitoris is also too large for me and I'd like it reduced.

I can feel my erectile tissue, kinda bumpy and weird. I'd like everything to be smooth and I'm not sure it's supposed to be exposed anyway.

Major dehiscence caused an ugly scar at the commissure, I hope they can clean that up.

Lumps are bc my sutures still haven't disolved.

Don't comment about porn star vaginas are unrealistic or what's cis looking. I have my standards, I still stick to them. But you will see changes past 3 months, I'll still see more at 6 when I see her again. And in hindsight, I still don't think I would have chosen anyone else.

Thank you for being so open and sharing your journey with us! I’m glad you’ve been healing well and that things have begun to look up.

You look great and I’m glad to see that you’re doing better! Good luck with the revisions and getting to where you need to be to feel comfortable and confident!

She looks nice, congrats!

Looks great!

Thanks for your open and honest post. I believe you had your surgery about 3 weeks after mine with Wittenberg. I've noticed a number of the same things you mention, though not all. It does seem that perhaps Dr. Wittenberg needs to work on her technique with the labia minora. Mine fell apart too, with the entire suture on one side meant to differentiate the minora coming out at two weeks post op. I'm happy overall with my result, and it's loads better than what used to be there. But I keep hoping my somewhat oversized vulva will shrink, too. And they seem to be slowly, and I hope they continue to. I have also been bothered by the fact that I can "move" my clitoris because it was stitched to the muscle or base of my penis stump. I hate that. I don't want to be able you move it. Cis women can't, and it causes me dysphoria. It doesn't swell, it can just move in the same way (though much much less) as I used to be able to move my penis. Finally, I, too , have lube when aroused. I'm guessing it's pre-cum leaking out but sometimes is a lot and definitely is cool to have that happen.

It seems very 'layered', like a lot of excess skin. It does look quite symmetrical.