Some answers to questions that I could imagine asking:
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Surgery went well, it was hellish for about 4-5 months before life kind of went back to normal. I found what it feels like to be addicted to opiods as well as a 10 on my pain scale, nearly passing out from pain at one point (and scarring poor Dr. Wittenberg with my scream.)
- Dr. Wittenberg is intensely wonderful. She's the best surgeon I've worked with and all of my experiences with her has been top notch.
- The results look very natural. I'm not going to provide pictures, but I'm happy with my results. It feels very normal to me at this point and having been married with plenty of experience with natal vaginas, it's consistent with my experiences there.
- Dilating is fine. It's annoying and painful, but it's nothing huge. I managed to rig a harness system up so that I could do it hands free and that works out for me.
- I lost depth rather quickly and no matter how hard or often I dilate I never got it back. I'm a little short, but apparently many cis women are about the same length so I don't really mind. For reference I make it to the second dot on the dilator.
- The big orange dilator never stops hurting but I only really need to use blue for dilation to be useful.
- I went a month without dilating at month 10 due to some severe mental issues. I did not lose depth or elasticity.
- I don't really dilate anymore, just have sexual activity. I've had no issues from that.
- Orgasms are different in that it's like warm waves all up and down my body with very little sensation focused on the parts themselves. It took me 11 months to have an orgasm - started trying at month four and seemingly getting close every single time. I personally like feeling more now than I did before, especially having something inside while stimulating the clitoris. Great feeling.
- Masturbation is a lot more work now. Stars kind of have to align for everything to work. It's a much better experience because of lack of dysphoria.
- Pull-through is great, the tissue seems to be stretchy and I get the impression dilation isn't really needed as much. I didn't lose depth when I missed out, everything kind of just settled in to where it is and it doesn't seem to matter much if I skip a week or so. After the tissue settled to its max depth, frequency really doesn't seem to matter as much.
- Lubrication seems really natural. I get super wet during sexual things and have a bit of passive lubrication that never really gets in the way.
- I stopped worrying about looking "natural" or many of the things I worried about before. It's just my vagina now.
This overall was a cure to my dysphoria and I have never regretted it, even when it was hard. When I got close to fainting from the pain I still had a huge smile on my face because the nightmare was finally over. While the active relief still isn't there, what remains is the lack of pain from my previous configuration. There's some downsides - these parts are a lot higher maintenance than what I had before, and sexual things are a lot more complicated/harder - but ultimately as a cure for dysphoria this worked out for me.
Anyway, AMA.
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